from today i will write here in english,no special purpose,just to show,ha!english is my favorate subject so i really don't want to abandon it.so from today i come back for you!
my first writing on the internet is about my confusion whether i have began liking the girl i haven't been acquainted for long,ha,to some extent,i don't know her at all,instead,i just knew her name and heard her voice.that'all!but i really appreciate her candidness and optimism,which i could identify from her pleasing voice,especially her laughing.
i have to say i am not good at hiding my feeling in front of a good girl so i couldn't help to say i like and i want you to be my girlfriend yesterday,unfortunately,she is the HR assistant of the company on which i am living;what'more,she said no quite firmly and she expained exactly the reason is that she needs a truly mature man from whom she can learn and become mature too.but i ,obviously,don't fit for the condition demanded,ha! i was sentenced to death right away,so candidly!that made remember something,and i told her she had achieved one thing which took someone else three years to do.then i found i was such a fool,but it was too late,she was so clever that she understood what i meant in few seconds.certainly,she thought i was trying to find some substitution.in fact,if i were the girl,i would have had the same feeling that "the boy is a junk,who do you think you are?"
at first,she said no but she was still a little happy,but when i said those foolish words (though,i really really didn't mean that,because i have been out of the past for long),i guess ,she must be angry.so i apologize sincerely here,maybe she couldn't see,but still i have to say,really sorry!
when i got home i sent message to her,she asked an interesting question whether i knew XiaoKun,of course i knew her,the HR manager who gave me the offer for this position.i can't understand what she meant by asking this.a threat>?or nothing?from what i know about her,the question couldn't a threat or warning,anyway,i can't catch what exactly she is thinking,ha!
at last ,i want to say if i really want to find some substitution,i don't have to risk so much,anyway,she controls more resource in company than me who have nothing and know nothing.really hope that she would understand me!          GOD!