we have seen our president on the graduation celebration, which we have expected for a long time. when the graduates are waiting for the president's turning up, we really feel a kind of emotion named exciting. gradually,we can't feel excited, actually the good thing we have been expecting so long is just as common as we have three dinner one day. however, we are still happy about the distance between the dream and the reality just because we have come through and we have known about it.

tommorrow i will go to the railway station with my friend to see his girlfriend off. in fact i have seen her yesterday and she said i didn't have to go, but i know it may be quite a long time before i can see her again after this departion. in the four years i always call her sister-in-law, and keep a good relationship with my friend and her, just like a family. now everything , the happiness is going far away from us. i will say to her , take good care of yourself,yourself ！

 

it seems that recently i have accomplished a lot of things,including my thesis, which may be the most important and also the only thing that is still impressing me.  just as my friend around me, i cannot remember what esle have i done, maybe acctually nothing else.

i get up very late everyday, much later than when i was in my probation, i feel surprised about this because i can get up early to take practise during probation full of work and study, now when i have been free from work , however,i can't get up. maybe i have broken the cycle of life when back to school again.

approaching graduation, trivial things keep coming one after another, the time before leaving has been cut into fragments because of the damn things. sometimes we have nothing to do,so we went to drink wine,spending quite a few hours every time, this is one of the most important contents.

when walking around the little woods, reallly feel time left for us is so little.

people often complain about their sufferings,especially when others got what they themselves didn't.most people are apt to totally believe in their ability to achieve the goal,no matter how humble they are in front of others.so when others got a better score they may say hw can it be this,i don't think he is clever than me or he works harder than me,it is unfair.

where is jealous from?i think it results from feeling of unfair.if we reduce the possibility of feeling unimpartial,jealous in the world can be reduced to a lower level.nothing that exists is unreasonable,if the truth is standing just there,how can we say it's unreasonable.people may say this idea is kinda of pessimistic,i do not agree,only when we stand on the basic of the truth,not the complaint,shall we have the chance to jump high in the next step.

so,never complain what it is now.but accept and change it then.

people need to keep selfchecking if he wants to grow up actually,it is still right when refferring to a corporation.if the supervisors want the career up and up again,they must have the temper to show the leak themselves,not being forced to.

when i first saw news about leaks in router product of cisco systems,i was foolish to think that cisco is not so strong as i always think.and the leaks were shown by their tech expert.but when i saw news of this kind for several times,i began to think this is not so easy.every time a leak is found and advertised,cisco can always find solution to work out it,and advertised again.so i think it's neccessary to judge that cisco is trying to get media focus and support from customers because they are proving their honesty and their power to enhance their products.not only cisco but also some other IT giants are unfolding their system leak and patching later.this is a kind of confidence resulting from power.

compared with those above,the IT industry leader inboard seldom make mistakes,basically no negative news heard by me.haha,maybe that and i hope that.

suddenly i want to write something about the past,maybe it is not aboutsomething happy ,generally speaking,people are good at remembering their sufferring,not the happiness.i am a common man,so what i want to say is also not pleasing.i am from a country family,as most country families,my parents often qurralled about things that cannot be more trivail.that had  begun since i could keep what happened in my head for the first time.i respect my dad with a little fear to him,haha,maybe that can be explained by philosophy saying "the socail structure depends on ecnomical basis ".he had a bad temper,especially when he was young after drinking wine, as a child who didn't know too much about life,i always standed on my mum's side,with my elder sister together.people always say time can work out any problem,but i hadn't seen that happen though the situaiton had lasted for many years.instead,the situation got worse in my junior school,maybe just as my mum said that my dad had a mental illness because of worrying about
my grandpa's health.so she asked us to understand dad.fortunately everything went on well when i finished high school.since then my dad became quite gentle and also quit wine,there is no more large-scale quarrel,which made me feel that i have a happy family now.i had to say the past had a deep influence on me,so when i became to understand most of what an adult does i often told myself,look for a girl you love sincerely,only that can you bypass the cource on which my parent had gone.only that can you and your child get real happiness.

 

yesterday evening when i got home i felt so tired that i fell asleep soon,though i got her message asking me to stay up with her together .as a result,she became quite angry ,i could judge from her last messagge saying "how can you be like this?".so i tried to make her forgive me,but i hadn't gotten any reply by now.GOD,i couldn't remember how long  it had been since my last asking for any excuse ,haha.anyway,she is the girl in my heart,it's not a bad thing to beg forforgiving.i felt tired again,but i  would wait for her reply!!

yesterday when i was walking after finishing morning exercise,an old gentleman talked to me with a smile.he said he had been watching me for nearly a week,which made me very surprised.he also counted how many rounds i finished every day and knew what i would do after running,taiji,which made me more surprised.however,the number of rounds was not accurate,he was assisted that i ran 3 rounds every day,in fact it's 6,so i tried to correct him,but the result proved that i was not clever enough because it'a unnecessary to argue about such a quedtion,especially with old men.so this morning when i met him again he asked me "you finished your 3 rounds?" i answered "haha.more or less".
now it's not a place where i knew no one,at least i have someone to talk to,though we do not know the names each other. ha!this is not a bad thing so i must feel happy about it.thank you the old gentleman.

it was saturday yesterday,i went to the park as usual.after that i had to go to my classmate's home.in fact it's not a long way taking half and an hour,but it's still far for me to get there just for lunch.and i had to take with me some present,in all,haha,the lunch cost a lot.on the way i sent short message to the girl,chatting about whether it is possible for her to give me a chance,the answer had been always no,so consistent,giving me no hope,which made me very down.when i got back from my classmate ,we kept seeding message to each other,as a result,i didn't go to bed until 2:00 in the dawn.though i felt tired,it did mean for me,anyway this is a chance to know more about her,to help me think about the future.however,i just got more and more confusion about what she is thinking and what she really wants.maybe she is really too clever for me,such a foolish boy,haha.

i didn't get up early today ,the resting day assigned by the GOD,for exercise,i fell asleep waiting for her reply,waking up at about 8:00,because her message ,saying she had been dreaming before me,unforgivable.i rememberred  her examination about what i would do in oder to make her like me in a year,and in a month.my answer was not even satisfying myself,to say nothing of her,so she judged me again as unmature.haha,insteresting!especially after we both got the score of the scientific test for human's mental age.

i like a girl,so i like and embrace  every aspect of hers,and i do not have to make a conclusion about the good and the bad point.just as a line in Zhou XingChi'S MOVIE,do you need a reason to love someone ?

a long way in front of me ,now that i had begun.i would go to the end,no matter what kind of the result it would be!

before i left the office she told me that she was unhappy on the MSN,so i chatted with her for a while.during that i din't find any necessary reason that can make her unhappy,except the complicated relationship between a damn man and two loving girls,which i guessed,of course i do not want to accept the truth that she may be jealous of the girl because the damn man,but i don't have any reply from her so far,including whether she feels better now.i think i do care her!
then i went to the park nearby,just to have a rest.there are always a lot of people,none of whom did i know,then i can enjoy the quietness.i found a chair to sit,listening to the birds and smelling the taste of the grass,i didn't lie,there are birds in the trees.i was very surperised when i got short message from her saying they have finished supper,i don't kwon why i also felt quite happy abnut this except that i do care her,so i want to get any information from her no matter how unimportant it is.
when i come to the park to take morning exercise i don't have to ware glasses because i don't have to see their faces clearly,including those beauties and monsters.i just run a round and another round,thinking about nothing. you may say i am a man without heart or lungs,haha,but i am still me.
write this to the damned shit garbage computer i am using, when i have nearly finished it's dead so i have to write again

from today i will write here in english,no special purpose,just to show,ha!english is my favorate subject so i really don't want to abandon it.so from today i come back for you!
my first writing on the internet is about my confusion whether i have began liking the girl i haven't been acquainted for long,ha,to some extent,i don't know her at all,instead,i just knew her name and heard her voice.that'all!but i really appreciate her candidness and optimism,which i could identify from her pleasing voice,especially her laughing.
i have to say i am not good at hiding my feeling in front of a good girl so i couldn't help to say i like and i want you to be my girlfriend yesterday,unfortunately,she is the HR assistant of the company on which i am living;what'more,she said no quite firmly and she expained exactly the reason is that she needs a truly mature man from whom she can learn and become mature too.but i ,obviously,don't fit for the condition demanded,ha! i was sentenced to death right away,so candidly!that made remember something,and i told her she had achieved one thing which took someone else three years to do.then i found i was such a fool,but it was too late,she was so clever that she understood what i meant in few seconds.certainly,she thought i was trying to find some substitution.in fact,if i were the girl,i would have had the same feeling that "the boy is a junk,who do you think you are?"
at first,she said no but she was still a little happy,but when i said those foolish words (though,i really really didn't mean that,because i have been out of the past for long),i guess ,she must be angry.so i apologize sincerely here,maybe she couldn't see,but still i have to say,really sorry!
when i got home i sent message to her,she asked an interesting question whether i knew XiaoKun,of course i knew her,the HR manager who gave me the offer for this position.i can't understand what she meant by asking this.a threat>?or nothing?from what i know about her,the question couldn't a threat or warning,anyway,i can't catch what exactly she is thinking,ha!
at last ,i want to say if i really want to find some substitution,i don't have to risk so much,anyway,she controls more resource in company than me who have nothing and know nothing.really hope that she would understand me!          GOD!

自己是一个单身汉，也许是真的不适合和女孩子在一起，所以才在追求的道路上一直不顺利。但是自己实在不想这么一直下去，于是我怀疑自己是不是得了心理疾病，见到一个刚刚认识的女孩子就想：如果她能做我的女朋友也是不错的事情吗呵呵，我真是个流氓！不过我就是这样的一个流氓，如果能够有机会的话我会好好珍惜能够愿意和我在一起的而不介意我是这样的一个流氓的女孩子的。也许有人看到这些肯定会远远避开我，但是这是我的心里话，也许是很多人的心里话，也许不仅仅是有些男人的心里话吧！也许这就是这个世界上像我们一样的动物每天会思考的事情吧，呵呵！人呢！